Rants from the Past Which are still fresh TODAY!

Well now, some of you will want to skip this colation of past anger. Many of the things said therein are pretty raw. Still, I did say them years ago and note that they have lost none of their topicality! These were vents of pure rage at one thing or another .. and the causes are still going strong out there.

If you feel that by riding the rapids of someone else's pure anger you could conceivably feel a bit better at the end ... strap yourself in cause these ones are bumpy and FULL of PROFANITY. From here on in - you ride at your own risk!

Ahhh I feel better now ...

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A warning regarding criticisms by outsiders of the Net World

I would have to say that MOST people who have at least two brain cells to rub together who have not liked what they saw from me over time have had the good sense to keep their objections to themselves. But some have not.

Now, I have never really been a "Community" or "Group" kind of guy I will admit; but upon my meeting certain members of the so called "World Wide Web Community" I finally realized why.

The horrible fact is that a good 85% of people out there are absolute shit heads.

They are the sort of people that I would gleefully beat to a pulp - just so that they could see how worthless their "self imposed, false importance" really is. I tend to treat people on the web as I would if I had met them on the street. I thought this was only appropriate and fair ... not so I find!

Some things really piss me off.........
Well this is just one of them .....

Some time ago I stuck my head out and heard some questions ... I answered some and left the info out there for those of a mind to read at their leasure. Why? Well, basically for two reasons. One is quite simple, the other quite complex.

The simple reason was that for a very long time, people of various persuasions had come up to me and said "Wow, that shit you just pulled was way cool! How is it that you do what you do? How is it that you live the way you do?"

And so I would tell them. I have done that a lot over the years.

After doing that lots of times I started to think - wouldn't it be neat, (not to mention very useful!!) if I had something that would do this work for me. That way, when people wish - they could just consult the book and not have to wait.

Everyone could progress at their own pace and etc.. I refined this to a book that would evoke and provoke certain experiences within it's reader.

As I had often said, if you want to know why I am the way I am - live my life. I always felt that virtually ANYONE could come to the conclusions I had if they experienced what I did/have/am/will. So I rekindled a dream I had as a student - a book that had everything and would literally lead the reader into a world that was replete with all forms of experiences. Many lessons, many viewpoints etc.

So - the simple reason was that - I wanted to put all I had experienced into a database - all I knew in one place and "caveat emptor". After a while you get tired of telling people what to do and how .... you want to further your own works and researches.

This was the second reason. I wanted to do this as a way of "giving something back" after much taking from the universe in general. This was to be a "Masterwork" - a thing that could not just be studied but experienced - it would do more than just inform. Of course in both instances I have kept myself to the clue form - many slight clues that build a picture to the attentive ... many wee articles etc.

And I feel that; so far at least, I have succeeded.

Then it began. You know the old bullshit - "oh but it is not original" etc ... you know, because the pictures are from so and so or the sounds are from such and such ...... The next thing you know I am literally outcast by some quarters because of it!! Well here is the drum .....

Yes! I sometimes do present the work of others - Why?

Because we are the products of all that has gone before!

We are, like it or not, NOT living in a vacuum! We are influenced by what we see, hear etc.

I DO have some truly unique work .... I have stuff that has never seen the light of day ... but how in the HELL am I to expect others to understand it if I will not explain it!?! And how can I explain it other than how I arrived at it .... and how did I arrive at it ?? - by learning things that were already there!! AND furthermore, WHY the HELL should I put my private world on show so that I may be accepted by some know it all "original" smart arse who would laugh at my work in their ignorance anyway!?!

I worked HARD for my original work and I will be DAMNED if I am going to just give it away! You want it?? EARN IT! How? By working HARD and then ASKING!

Because I wanted to convey a message!

Communication depends on shared understandings. Ever tried to describe the colour "Mauve" to a blind person?? If I want to convey my message or make people understand something then I will use symbols and pictures and sounds and things THAT THEY ALREADY KNOW!! That way there is the highest possibility of their understanding!

Because I know my limitations.

Lastly, ya wanna know WHY I use other's work?? Because (shock! Horror!) I actually KNOW my limitations!! I prefer to believe that if "someone says what you want to say in a way BETTER than you can say it - QUOTE THEM!"

Therefore,

when I see a picture that is better than I could do it - I use it.
When I hear sounds that I could not make - I use them ...
When someone says something better than I can - I say what they said!!

Get the picture!?!

I have seen much "Original" work that was, to put it bluntly, TRASH. Am I supposed to applaud that for the fact that it is "Original Trash"?? Is it supposed to be like that?? Well I won't!

Of course these days I goes without saying that so MUCH CRAP is out there I am now quite often forced to be TOTALLY original and simply warn others beforehand how LITTLE mercy they will get if they repay my gifts with slaps ... ahhh how the world turns ..

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The "Web Community"

I touched briefly (in the previous rant) on The World WIde Web Community. Here I think I shall expand on the notion and expound a few points that really shit me off about people in general.

Some things really piss me off ...
This is just one of them.

Another thing that irritates me no end is the number of people who sit and smirk and go - oh well HE is not real .... for whatever half assed reason ..

NOT REAL!?! RIGHT, you useless weakling sons of bitches COP THIS!

I am SICK AND TIRED of sniffing the air and saying to myself:

"Oh; another Johnny come lately, smart arsed know it all half-wit newbie has decided that I am full of shit ..... oh well".

NO MORE!

I have been more than polite with some of you little friggers - god knows my Elders are constantly AMAZED at my patience - and I must admit that it is at an end! I have gotten where I am today by HARD WORK - REAL study, REAL, work .... by actually DOING and then seeing how right or wrong it is!

I HAVE NOT sat back and smiled smugly from my self imposed ignorance thinking: "I know better (even though I HAVE NEVER EVEN TRIED IT!!)".

NO! I went out and actually put in the hours and the footwork! I have spent YEARS studying, YEARS practicing and YEARS - just bloody THINKING and PLANNING! And I will NOT put up with some half cocked little frigger who decides that just because the shit don't work for them over a weekend - I AM WRONG!

This ALSO applies to all the "I am a REAL (fill in blank) and because I do not agree with you - you are NOT" crowd! Do you have ANY IDEA how LAUGHABLE you people are!?!

Part of "being real" is finding new things that are outside your sphere of experience and giving it a shot to discover truth!

Following on from this - I also refer to the self crowned and so imagined "NET GODS". The "We think you are lame because you are not a total geek with no ability to exist outside in the real world" shitheads ....

So you have used the net longer than me - do you SERIOUSLY think that I am going to be impressed by that? Sorry guys! I have been living in the REAL WORLD !

You know, that fabled place where if people don't like you they beat the shit out of you? THIS is where I earned my spurs lads and lasses .... not in some half assed "War of Words/ops/scripts" bull shit. Your "orgs and coms and nets" don't impress me. Not one iota.

(Apologies to all those DECENT people out there that have busted their ass to learn what they have and are currently WAY AWAY from the afore implied people - as one operator to another - for you I have only the deepest respect!)

But to all those "I can treat you like shit/ignore you etc. 'cause you are new etc." - get the clue kiddies! I may not know net war crap but I DO know something you don't and that is that because you are reading this - I can touch you!

YES! Your hands are touching a keyboard - connected to a PC - connected to the net ..... that is also connected to THIS PC - touching MY hands! I won't give you viruses or any other such crap - I will merely eat you from the inside out! Magick transcends computers dear friends - just remember that.

One last word on this issue - perhaps you should take a leaf out of the book that my mentor taught me .....

"Kid; NEVER just shit on someone you have just met. If you have just met them then you DON'T KNOW them .. and it would be such a pity to insult someone who will have your candy ass kicked through your face one dark night by six huge goons! You never know - until you do .. LEARN TO BE POLITE!"

As the phrase goes people: "I don't wanna hurt you - and you don't wanna be hurt - so why don't you piss off now and we will call it even?"

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Political Correctness

Have you ever had one of those days when you woke up and realized - for no real reason - that you are surrounded by totally incompetent fuck wits? I have. It would be a bad thing if it was not for the fact that it gives you perfect license to behave like an absolute arse hole ... AND BE COMPLETELY JUSTIFIED!

Some things really piss me off....
This is just one of them.

It can occur at any time, any where ... you look around and think "what the FUCK am I doing here!?!" This happened to me once.

Let me set the scene for you:

I have gotten up early to go to the local "Centre link" (a govt. institution that pretends to help you find work while you pretend to look for it) and there I am sitting filling out one of the infinite numbers of forms that they lay as traps for the unwary. Then; there it is! Crawling like an insidious virus .... creeping towards my ball point!

The Question read: "Have you been convicted of a felony and incarcerated for more than three months (even if you did not serve the whole term)?" Then, after it, is the phrase "You do not need to answer this question if you do not wish to." All I could do was laugh.

IF I DID NOT WISH TO!?! What the hell is that supposed to mean?! I mean, imagine you were going for a bank tellers position .... "Have you been convicted of a felony and served more than three months?" The administrator looks over at the employee to be as he cries "I don't believe you have asked me this ... I do not feel comfortable in answering that question - you will hear from my lawyers!"

EXCUSE ME!!?! Am I friggin' missing something here?! What the hell is this world coming to! I mean, no smoking areas, "women's only" places (even though it is illegal to have "men's only" places), no breast feeding, no books, films, comics etc. because they are deemed unsuitable!!! Hell the latest is that all junk food should have labels so that fatties can't blame the companies that be for their own lack of personal control!!!!

This shits me off no friggin end! I mean, I have a brain, I feel I have a right to at least decide what use I put it to! I mean, you do realize that we are, in fact not even allowed to make up our minds as to where we wish to CROSS THE DAMN ROAD!!

Friggin' ridiculous.... how long will it be, I wonder before I am walking down the road only to see red lights and hear the words "This is an unauthorized thought process!" blaring out of public address speakers. Not bloody long I will warrant.

How can I say this? I can say this because it was not so long ago that a man was arrested and charged for having "evil thoughts". I shit you not. NOT an urban myth - FACT. It was IN THE GODDAMN PAPERS!!!

Ahh fuck it - enough for one day - I think I shall go and fume in my own juices - or have a cuppa ... one or the other!

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Pure Crap

Well you know the drum - you are sitting there - politely smiling to the moron with which you are speaking and thinking "how in blessed Fuckup's (Fyboglian Goddess of making an absolute mess of things) name did I EVER think that you were a halfway decent person??" *Sigh* Yes it happens all too often ..

Some things really piss me off....

This is just one of them.

I Know ... I know .... in the past I HAVE said:

"Pure crap! My favourite kind of crap!"

..... but well I would get sick of Lasagna too if I had to eat it every night ! I think what irritates me *right now* is the huge selection of PURE CRAP that is floating about at the moment ... people speak it .... books are printed full of it ... the tv spews it out at us and it blares from every damn radio too it seems.

Now it seems pretty normal to me that it is heaving it's ass out of tv, radio and suchlike .... but I will admit to having been completely disturbed by the amount of alleged humans that have been taking up the banner lately.

I mean .. yeah sure there have always been hidden amongst us a wide selection of fools, cretins and morons who seem to delight in making assholes out of themselves (and enjoy being punished for it too I notice!!) ... and my acquaintance gallery has been graced by the likes of some fair virtuosos in this area.

Who could forget the words "I have challenged him a couple of times - even on the bridge near his house and he wouldn't meet me!" or the perennial favourite "I have more magic in my little finger ..." or the ever popular "Take one last look at what you are leaving behind" oh dear me ... these are things I wish I had recorded - I could sell them these days and make a mint! But no - it is not these parodies that I refer to when I say I am shocked ... no indeed - rather it is those who hid their talents behind calm rational INTERESTING AND LIKABLE (!?) exteriors that I am talking about!!

As some of you no doubt know ... I have recently poked my nose out into the wider community again after a lengthy hermitage. I would have to say that NEVER; not even in my most fevered imaginings could I have EVER imagined that things would be so laughably ridiculous!! Yup - that is right ... you heard right!

At first it was real simple - I was asked what my views were and they were heeded. Everyone did their jobs and all went well. This was where problems began. Now I KNEW that when I began this venture I was going to be meeting some odd people ... but I must admit that I was staggered by the amount of sheer powerlessness and incompetence that seems to infested the ranks of what was once a laudable calling and profession.

Some of the worst professionalism and displays of ignorance - the likes of which I had never even imagined possible - have been standard bills of fare. I swear - there were times that the sort of rancid crap that has gone on (and are still I might add!!) made me want to run and hide - and HOPE that everyone I had ever met forgot about me. On one or two occasions enough to make me forget my manners and address some in manners most unbecoming.

To credit where it is due however, some of it has been ok but the rest, (and a large majority it is!) has been sad and ridiculous.

And as for the usual wholesale betrayals and back stabbing let me say this ....
SLOPPY .... really DAMN SLOPPY .... tedious intrigues enacted by rank amateurs who could not lie well if their lives depended on it. It makes me glad that for once I was acting "above board" .... I would have been embarrassed to have been noticed in a game like that.

And one last thing .... for those out there that may read this and say: "well who was it that betrayed you?" or some such in some sort smug self righteous half assed way .... I will restrict myself to saying if you ask around the usual traps you will hear the usual stories .. thankfully I don't have to pay attention anymore and therefore WON'T hear them.

And to those of you out there who are currently going "Ooooo!" in your self imposed mocking stupidity - just remember .... I don't GIVE A RAT'S!

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All Fucked Up and Dead to the World

All Fucked Up and Dead to the World is the name of a song by Marilyn Manson ..... or it is a lyric - I don't really know or CARE which - my views on that band are well known enough for me to not have to go on about it I think ...

Besides - that subject is not what I want to talk about. What I want to talk about is the horrible effect that some times have on some people.

Some things really piss me off.........
Well this is just one of them .....

At some other points in my career there are oblique references to some sort of "sinister prophecy" or other that seems to overshadow some people. Well first let me tell you that I am *NOT* the sort of person that "buys into" all that shit generally. My view has always been:

"Yeah there will be a fair bit of pandemonium (look it up - it reveals a lot that word!!) but it will not be because of the end of the world or any other such bullshit. No, it will occur because people demand that it be so. EVERYONE wants to believe that it will be better or worse on Jan 1, Dawn the next day ... or whatever new moment people make up - but it won't.

For most people it will mean only a return to the same tired old shit that their life has *ALWAYS BEEN*. But the common man won't stand for that - oh no .... they will create problems and they will be sparked in each instance by one man alone. You see times like this are perfect staging times for any loony with a point to prove.

As the Revolting Cocks said "Yeah - Kill for Allah, Kill for Buddha - Kill for Jesus" - it's all the same shit. In any case one loop will pull a stunt and that will give every other with that tendency a "mandate" to continue the shit."

Anyway, I will admit that everything that I have learnt over the years has it's own little prophecies and as my view as always been pretty much as it is above, I naturally did not pay much heed to most of them - hell the rain won't be on MY parade!!

Many have assumed that I had just made them up - but it is not so.

SO LET THAT STATEMENT BE AN END TO THAT QUERY! If you want them you can have them. They are out there and you can find them for yourself. Hear them, read them, ignore them ... pretend that I am a fool if you like BUT remember to refrain from whining to me that your world falls apart - I am just not in the fucking mood for your shit.

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LIES and SHIT HEELS

I lie, you lie - everyone does. To be honest I don't *REALLY* see any problem with it - not really. Besides I was taught that to lie was an ART FORM and should be treated as such. I am sorely disappointed by many people that I interact with as they do not believe it is so - eh different strokes for different folks. You are probably wondering how I know this ....

Some things really piss me off.........

Well this is just one of them .....

Ok well I shall tell you - it is not because they are some sort of "Paragons of Purity and Honour" oh no don't get me wrong - it is just simply because they are BAD AT IT.

And it is THIS that grieves me the most. It SHITS me to be honest. It shits me because they obviously HONESTLY think that I don't realize it.

Let me paint a picture for you - you see it is easy - if you will lie make it good, big and grandiose - but MOST OF ALL make it not able to be disproved! THAT is the trick my sweets! YES! NOT ABLE TO BE DISPROVED!!

SO - this naturally means that if you tell me that you will or will not do something and assure me that it is so - then be aware that I have it all on record ..... do NOT therefore be surprised later should you renege on your stance and I call you on it.


You see it is THIS that pisses me off - to lie to me is one thing but to INSULT MY INTELLIGENCE WITH LIES THAT I ALREADY KNOW TO BE FALSE is just PURE INSULT!

That - to be blunt is one of the major reasons why I disassociated my self from much of the PAGAN COMMUNITY! Not because I was lied to, shunned, or sued (never happened sorry about that!!) - but MAINLY - because I was becoming EMBARRASSED to be in such a poor match of wits.

You see - it is simple - I don't look for trouble and I don't invite it. But when it comes I ensure by all of my skills that my "opponent" is so weakened and trounced that I can prevail with only the minimum effort - which I do.

It is nice to know by action and word who is "naughty" and who has been "nice" - you can bet that on Christmas Day BOTH the candy AND the COAL will be where it should be!

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"Welcome to the Bad Old Days"

"Welcome to the Bad Old Days" said the sign in my mind....

It's amazing sometimes you know - it really doesn't take all that much to keep me smiling - not much at all. But by the same token it also takes remarkably little to harden my face against someone - for the same reasons oddly enough.

I will simply relegate myself to asking one question: "Why?"

Why is it do you suppose that I get visited from time to time by people who come before me with a head filled to the brim with propaganda from people whom I despise, who then proceed at one stage or another to insult me and then act surprised that I don't tolerate it?

Some things Piss me off - this is just one of them.

So there I am sitting and listening while some pasty female that I have seen around the "traps" waxes lyrical in a pseudo sarcastic tone about the "goth scene" (GROAN - As if I could CARE!!)

Yes I know how this story goes already. She is barely twenty if she is lucky but has grimly clutched at a past that is long since dead. She has done this long enough to be considered as one who has been "around for a while".

So on she goes with the usual sort of "Oh it ain't like the old days" speech in hopes, (I can only assume) that I will rally alongside her and she can feel herself to be "in" with some "big friends". Naturally when she is reminded that she is really the youngest person in the room it does not bode well. The next thing I know I am hearing a sarcastic dig about MY age. And in my own territory too! I mean sure friends can take any number of shots at me and we all laugh but you know what? I won't tolerate it from someone I don't know - why should I?

So I pointedly remind her of etiquette with certain chosen words, namely: "Well yes many things have changed - simple politeness for example ... in my day if you insulted someone they would just punch you in the mouth, drive your teeth out your ARSE and then it wouldn't happen again now would it!?"

It doesn't take long for her to ascertain that the message is for her and that no one else is swingin’ to the rescue any time soon. So then she is offended, she glares and keeps her words carefully governed for the rest of the time she is in my presence until she is prepared to go. I salute her passing with the words: "Don't let it hit you on the ass on your way out".

Now I ask you - where did the manners go? And WHY is it that I am now supposedly meant to accept that kind of abuse with a smile and back down? Well here is a great secret - I don't care what the answer is ... cause I won't put up with it. I don't put up with it from my peers - and that means no one else gets away with either.

You see, that is the deal - one of my *SPECIAL* hates is people who are weak or pretend to be so that they can evade responsibility for their own actions.

"Oh you can't hurt me cause if you do you will be a bad guy!"
"Sounds like a fair deal to me C'MERE VICTIM! I got a NEED YOU can FILL!"

In this category are specialties like:

1. Pipe cleaner thin waif bois with no personality and too many damn smarmy comments but no FIGHT in 'em! If you wanna talk crap to me - do it on your feet and don't be surprised if those feet only taste the ground briefly!

2. Big fat chicks who think because they are big fat chicks that they can do whatever they want and not be called to task for it. As I said to a certain "Fop Frau" once: "Just because you are a chick, over weight and mentally "frail" - don't think I WON'T smash your face in if you provoke me."

3. Whingey little uni students who think that doing a Uni Course (or worse!) engaging in private piss poor "comparative religious studies" (read as owning books on "Celtic AND "Aboriginal" myths) means that they are in some position to mouth off at me so as to correct what anyone with half a brain can see is obvious! Riposting with "Well that is what *I* BELIEVE!" means nothing - you CAN have beliefs that are WRONG - irrelevant of what your back slapping comrades tell you!

Be warned you mob, I rarely ATTACK the WEAK ... BUT - if you want equality that is the risk you run! FEEBS LOOK OUT!!

FEEBS!!

Now I KNOW that you all who know me ... know how much I *HATE* feebs .... but I am going to address it again now ....

FEEBS FEEBS FEEBS!!! FUCK I HATE THEM!!

Whether it is feeble thought, feeble word, feeble action or feeble deed - it does not matter! Now I *know* that sometimes people just "screw up" ... and sometimes our parts and the outcomes that occur as a result of them are not as we would like it ....

"Hmmm that didn't quite work out like I expected etc. ..."

BUT .. at least the people of those categories are *trying* (VERY trying in some cases!)

No - what I am talking about is bloody minded feebleness ... and you know - oddly enough .. it is generally these same damn feebs that always feel that they must ... must ... MUST .. give you the benefit of their feeble nature and opinions !!

ARRRGGGHHHHH!!!

AND THEN to top it all off they blatantly ignore the subtle warnings given! You know the ones - like ignoring them. They then act all hurt and so decide to carry on at you. When you decide to THEN elucidate on "exactly how feeble you think they are ... and how it would be such a good idea if they just pissed off" - simply because their actions have now DEMANDED IT ... ahhhh me ... but their egos do make quite satisfying snapping sounds when they are stepped on ....

Ok so what am I saying here? Well I reckon I can only say:

FEEB SEASON IS OFFICIALLY OPEN!!

Oh and by the way ... on the subject of Smarmy Self Righteous New Age Wankers ..

To HELL with New Agers and their smug statements on what they are looking for or wanting (and for FREE I always note!!) Let me just say this also ...

"Too right I am not what you were looking for! I am a PRODUCT of a WHOLE WORLD you couldn't POSSIBLY HOPE TO COPE WITH!! I will DO my JOB! I WILL NOT be lame about it and pretend like it ain't the REAL DEAL! Hypocrisy! LIES!"

Like most New Age Stores so too is much of their content:

"Acceptance and Freedom Guaranteed because we keep the FREAKS and REAL People OUT."

Your Gods must be PROUD of YOU.

By the way the difference between a witch and a new ager is that what the New Ager buys from the witch for a fiver they then REsell to their friends for FIFTY!!

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